During our year or so together, Billy was very critical of some of my life choices, which I tried to be supportive of his hobbies.  Mr Gardner, was a pretty close friend of Billy's, unbeknownst to me. Mr Gardner would often invite me to go to the casino, knowing if I went out, I would be locked out until the following afternoon. Sometimes he would show up, but many times he left me wandering the streets, waiting on him. 

He seemed to take personal offense when I referred to my relationship with Billy as one of convenience,  though I didn't tell him that we had a falling out and I asked to spend the five weeks until my mom's boyfriend came to move me back to Conncecticut, sleeping on his couch. He just assumed the worst about me and ran with it. 

Moreso, than making a mountain out of a molehill, I'd say that he had no right to be passing judgement on me, behind my back while playing the devil's advocate and masquerading as my friend. He was known to often say, "Keep your friends close, and your enemies closer".

He also latched onto the saying, "it's easier to apologize, than it is to ask permission", as if it were my mantra. He'd say it so frequently while casting daggers in my direction with his eyes. It's not like I made up the saying myself, I read it somewhere and repeated it. 

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